by Sensei | Sep 25, 2021 | Awareness, Journey, Mindless
I am deeply aware that the 1st half, or rather most of my life, was lived in destination thinking.
“What is this destination thinking?”
It is a life that is always lived for something in the future, a future time or place.
It’s easy to spot. It sounds like this.
“If I can make it to lunch…”
“20 minutes and then I can fight the traffic home…”
“Wednesday, it’s hump day…”
“One day until the weekend…”
“Vacation in two weeks, then…”
“When I get this done, I will be able to…”
“Can’t wait until…”
Every day, tens, hundreds, maybe even thousands of times was focused on the next, the future!
Very little was lived in the Now; very little was truly enjoyed.
I was physically there, but my mind was always thinking about the next activity, the next to-do, the next workday, the next cool grown-up-toy, the next, the next, the next…
I was rarely aware of Now.
My brain looped, over and over and over; day-in and day-out.
Looking back, it was miserable.
I lived that way for the first 40-years, give or take; even though I started the transition toward the Mindful Pathway in my 30s, it took years to break the habit.
Quickly, my attempts to change grew into thousands of attempts and then countless.
There had to be a better way…
by Sensei | Sep 24, 2021 | Awareness, Mindful
At the stoplight, a man with the sign:
Homeless
Please Help
God Bless
Guilty, in my new car without any money, frozen in a forward stare. After a few uncomfortable minutes, really seconds. He walked to the next car.
Aware of my discomfort, my comparative affluence and without any money to assuage my guilt: Ego.
Little separates us, he is human too; and maybe he is down on his luck.
Who am I to judge his circumstances or hypothezie how he came to these circumstances?
How in such a wealthy country anyone could be homeless? In a world of nearly 8 billion people, 7,900,000,000, nearly 1 in 8 live in extreme poverty.
Ego says, “I will strive to leave money in my car…” and I wonder is to more to assuage my guilt …
by Sensei | Sep 23, 2021 | Awareness, Mindful
With this post, I’m beginning a tagged series about Self-Awareness. My hope is to share actual experiences and insights into my own self-awareness with minimal editing and allow everyone to see the questions I ask myself through the process.
Awareness is a process; and too often I see how my identity, my ego, is too often in the material world made of many THINGS are not me: not the deeper soul part.
Does anything you or I own truly to who you are or who I am?
Where you went to school? Or even if you went to school?
Does a job make anyone smarter or better or special?
Does money? Or religion? Or political party?
Or physical beauty? Or fitness?
Does comparison really help?
Do we have to keep score?
Do I have to be lessor for you to feel better?
Is being right or winning or betting the next guy what this is all about?
