I am deeply aware that the 1st half, or rather most of my life, was lived in destination thinking.
“What is this destination thinking?”
It is a life that is always lived for something in the future, a future time or place.
It’s easy to spot. It sounds like this.
“If I can make it to lunch…”
“20 minutes and then I can fight the traffic home…”
“Wednesday, it’s hump day…”
“One day until the weekend…”
“Vacation in two weeks, then…”
“When I get this done, I will be able to…”
“Can’t wait until…”
Every day, tens, hundreds, maybe even thousands of times was focused on the next, the future!
Very little was lived in the Now; very little was truly enjoyed.
I was physically there, but my mind was always thinking about the next activity, the next to-do, the next workday, the next cool grown-up-toy, the next, the next, the next…
I was rarely aware of Now.
My brain looped, over and over and over; day-in and day-out.
Looking back, it was miserable.
I lived that way for the first 40-years, give or take; even though I started the transition toward the Mindful Pathway in my 30s, it took years to break the habit.
Quickly, my attempts to change grew into thousands of attempts and then countless.
There had to be a better way…